Sorry you feel that way

I’m not as skinny as I used to be.

I also care less.

Keep your reflections on the wall.

And the cheese on my fries.

It takes courage to grow up.

Yet 37 seconds to change your mind.

I’m not as happy as I used to be.

I also cry less.

The pain of securing happiness isn’t appealing.

You don’t bring me flutters these days.

That’s a choice I make.

I’m walking on the side of silent retreats.

And wearing high heels in the grass.

There’s no room for a second voice.

Only one voice that means me well.

 

 

 

 

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I can do the splits

I can make magic with my eyes closed.

I can sing underwater.

I can complicate your marriage.

I can hunt dragonflies.

I can invade your silent thoughts.

I can wash the blood off your coat.

I can drive a stick.

I can conquer demons.

I can whisper to the moon.

I can twist.

I can override your request.

I can plant cigarettes in the ground.

I can melt an AK-47.

I can do all of this plus I can do the splits.

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I heard the birds chirping

and I became enlightened.

Off the heads of peeking worms,

through the thick of mud soiled to

carefully stepped feet,

the song of the day was my scream

inside a barrel.

I stopped numbering the days and

wondering if the sun still shined.

All this time,

what I hadn’t known

or didn’t want to believe is that

people died because God didn’t

make hearts indestructible.

 

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Hi, it’s me.

I’ve been writing so much in the last few weeks. In the beginning, I wasn’t sure how I felt about sharing my strange, random thoughts through poetry and short stories. But I can say for certain that I feel grateful for the views and likes from my small following!

You are appreciated. And I mean that sincerely. Thank you for reading. It makes a girl like me really smile.

~shesneon

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THEY SAY

Seasonal allergies.
We all get them.
And so, discomfort is expected.
Even the bloody noses.
This is integral, in fact--
You're supposed to bleed and
wander with your head tilted back.
If the dark circles around your eyes
are an indication of loneliness
then
just
sleep.
You're supposed to be exhausted.
Inhale fast enough to give oxygen
for the nosebleeds
but slow enough to burn the part of
your throat used for swallowing.
If this is easy,
you 
don't 
care.
Cry into tissues 'til they turn sour,
this should hurt.
Every ounce of you should feel rotten.
Your knees should buckle like
molten rock and your hands
should callus over.
Isn't it what they say?
This is just like the nuisance
of seasonal allergies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Afraid of white shirts

I spill coffee every first sip

and when I do, my armpits spiral

like a dizzied child

so I cover my arms with a black sweater

kept around for the chance I’ll need it

and end up picking the fuzz off the still

visible part of my chest,

which is sheer enough to reveal

the bra I chose that morning,

my god,

why do I bother with this nonsense of

a white shirt.

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ugly

Exactly 3 o’clock

the mail hasn’t come.

Slept in again

with my glasses on.

Pancakes for lunch

pancakes for dinner.

Quiet fills the space

I’m so thoughtless.

But I’m breathing

and the light is louder.

Screaming into a barrel

it’s so dark in here.

The mail hasn’t come yet

not even at 3 o’clock.

 

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Said to a child

Life isn’t boring

Just shut your eyes

And let your dreams play.

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Don’t believe me

I’d told you before

     eleven times.

Remember that old brown bag?

     The ugly bag with the frayed straps.

I peeped thread coming

undone after one week.

I’d told you before

     don’t pay full price for new things.

     Tarnishing

     is what happens when no one

     is looking.

Well, we had to be eight,

     or nine years old,

     maybe ten even,

when those crumbled receipts

and gum wrappers fell on to

the table.

     Did they tell you the table

     belonged to the guy who

     lived there prior?

The bewilderment of your youth,

     a stunted milestone

     exposed in sixty-five seconds.

I have told you before

     thirteen times.

But the last one

words melted from my lips,

     like pine needles,

     tight as brake pads,

you decided it was best

     or better

for your sanity to

put cotton balls in your ears.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Huff and puff

Amazing how cold it gets

     in Chicago

     on a Tuesday.

Watching palm trees die

     on Lake Michigan

     would be more sad

     than not having them

      at all.

And loneliness becomes a game

     having the winning streak of

     creating self-pitying ignorance of

     friends.

I need a light.

Doing good kept me out of the

     cool kid’s gang

     called it a team,

     they laughed that I was

     always so damn cold.

So I stopped wearing jackets.

     Now I’m sick all the time.

It’s dark in here,

screaming loud,

     save me

     this isn’t what I thought,

     it’s dark in here!

I’m not trying to be heard

     really,

there’s enough noise coming from

     the blue bird.

Once in a while, try listening inside

     your chest

     put your head in a pillow.

Open up some light and lock it in.

These people are draining

     pretenders

     who can’t stop blowing out candles

     to see themselves shine.

But they can’t get a light because

     it’s so awfully dim

     and silent beyond silent

     the still of complacency

     is just an absolute

     endless round of

     dragon’s soot.

It does get red-nosed cold here.

I imagine, it gets warmer

      in the break of the sun

      in opened books

      or in machined hearts.

My god,

      it’s dark in here.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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